In my last post, I pondered whether the absence of creating poetry while on my almost month-long writing retreat might be contributing to my inability to sleep. My dear friend and fellow poet, Ann, was absolutely right when she wrote in a comment to that post that it sounded as if it was time to write a poem. She also hit upon the fact that editing and revising are not the same as creating, and I can admit that a good portion of my time here has been devoted to the revision process … which is, as Ann pointed out, emotionally somewhat removed from the project.
A couple of weeks ago, while not sleeping, I came across a program on the Discovery Health channel about dreaming. It was while watching this program that I got the title for that poem it was time to write. When I got the first draft of this poem written last week, having to tinker with it was a nice respite from wrestling with revising the snaking prose that had already laid claim to its territory.
The last couple of weeks, I have utterly given in to my natural body clock, staying up until 3:00 or 4:00 and sleeping until 10:00 or 11:00 (when I could sleep at all). I resent this condition in myself. However, there’s nothing to be done for it, and since I have been completely on my own here, why not give in? And yet, there is tension even in that “harmless” surrender. Thus the poem. Here is a stanza from the poem, which is still a draft, and is entitled Six Years of Dreaming. On that Discovery Health channel program, it was said that the average person will spend six years of their lives dreaming. Stanza 3:
Sleep has come to do an intervention
bringing with him
common sense, conventional wisdom
intuition … history. All the self-righteous
and smug know-it-alls.
Naturally, I am repulsed.
It is still a draft, but I like the doing of it … and I slept great last night. Tomorrow I head home, back to my family and, therefore, back to more reasonable and loving expectations.
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It’s way past my bedtime now, and I’ll be on a plane in the morning! But when I saw you had a new posting I couldn’t resist…Now I’m thinking I need to write a poem so that maybe I can get a little shuteye. Can’t wait to see the rest of your poem!